Peace comes when you stop and breathe

I have been MIA for the last couple of weeks.  I have had a few trials, challenges, sad moments, and really great moments! I think that figuring out what I really needed has given me more strength than I have had for a while.  I was able to spend a little bit of time with close friends that I truly love, you gave me nourishment and strength to continue to fight the good fight.  I will be forever touched. Thank you guys, I love you.

I have had some challenges within my closest relationships.  Extreme difficulties can be exhausting.  It can make you feel like your entire world is caving in and it is really hard to function.  It is really hard to think clearly. It is hard to separate actions and feelings, and when feelings dictate actions things can get to a breaking point quickly. 

I have been reminded that I love my people for a reason.  It is what is inside each one of them that reaches out and grabs hold of what is inside me.  I am so blessed to have so much in my life.  My cousin in law was recently diagnosed with cancer.  It is heartbreaking!  She is so young and lives about an hour away from all of us.  she is in my prayers every day.  She is loved very much, and we are all sending her strength. Had a good day at the gym, thank you Stef for listening and giving me a better understanding of the genes lol.  I love my people!  All of you!

This next week is looking to very busy and hopefully I will be able to deepen some of the connections in my life.  I am really looking forward to getting back in the gym as my family issues have taken precedent this week and I sure am feeling the lack of exercise.  Today was a good start.  Tomorrow I will be in the gym again and back on my regular schedule.  I do have about a week left on my shots. I have not eaten well the last week either.  I get stressed out and then I do not eat. Then when I get hungry again and do eat, I eat badly.  I did okay today, it wasn't a total success but it was a good start back on the right path. 

I welcome change, I welcome peace, love, hope...I know that life brings constant motion.  That is what I love about it!!  I am moving forward with a new feeling of peace, of being loved and cared for and knowing that I will be able to ride the wave.  I move forward knowing that which may seem like a failure at the moment sometimes just needs a better plan.