One breath at a time

Happy hump day!  I weighed in today,  I have been fighting a lot of fatigue this week and I just wasn't up to going in yesterday.  It is just a fibro flare up and it will pass, hopefully soon LOL.   Although my flare ups have diminished substantially the fibro likes to pop up every once in a while just to remind me that I'm human.  My weigh in was very good.  I have lost the 10 pounds that I had gained.  Yay!  I have been working out every day except yesterday and even though I am feeling the pain I have forced myself to go and workout because I know that I might be struggling just to get through it but I will feel better when it's over.  With fibro pain you are never are quite sure where it will show up.  Most of my pain is in my neck and hips and my right arm.  I don't take pain medication unless I absolutely have to and most days I can get by without it, this week not so much.

It has been a fairly quiet week so far.  Other than a moment or two of drama with my children life is good.  JD and I have found some common ground.  We are working on our relationship and both of us really want it to work for the sake of our family.  It feels like we have found each other again.  It is like we started over.  It is an every day process and we are working every day at it but I look at him now and remember what it was that drew me to him in the first place.  I am very happy, I am loved.  We are communicating in ways that we have not been able to before and much of the anger that was within our home seems to have dissipated.  It is a beautiful thing!  Date night, we have not been on a date together for years.  This last weekend he planned everything, got a sitter, took me to dinner and then we went to play some pool where we met.  We laughed and talked and of course he beat me at pool but not by much lol.  It was a really great night! One that we both really needed.  The kids were still awake when we picked them up so we came home and all of us climbed into my king size bed and started watching a movie.  It wasn't long before the kids were asleep but we definitely made some good memories.

I have decided that I want the kids to be more involved with our healthy eating plan.  Adrianna has been cooking with me for a while.  The last couple of days she has gotten up when I leave for the gym at 5 am and gotten dressed and ready to go so that when I come home at 6 she can help make breakfast.  Today we made banana pancakes and smoothies.  I love spending those moments with her.  She asked me what I wanted for my birthday.  It got me thinking, I have all that I need right now.  I have a wonderful family, my marriage is strong again, I have some really special friends.  I have so much to be thankful for.  I am truly blessed and the only thing that I want for my birthday is to know that the people that I love are happy. 

I am hoping to walk a 5k race on Mother's Day with my daughter.  I had hoped to run it as one of my goals is to run a 10k race within this next year but I am not quite feeling confident enough to run this one.  I will get there, it is a process I must remind myself of that every day and I am working hard.  One day at a time, One breath at a time...