I have been out of town in training all week. Getting home today is like letting out my breath. It has been a week full of so much that my brain is still spinning. I hate being away from home for that long. I am unable to relax. I miss my kids and worry consantly that things at home will not function without me (commonly referred to as control issues). I am out of my element and experience a certain degree of sress when I am away from home and although I was in the company of some really great women it was a long week.
I started my shots again last saturday and although I have not been able to weigh in, I am feeling that I have lost around 10-15 pounds so far or maybe thats just wishful thinking. I have been using the gym in my hotel every morning and a couple of evenings. I stayed pretty well within my food plan. I did try to drink as much water as I could. I typically do not sleep well in hotels. and it is hard to stick to a weight loss plan when you are travelling.
My relationships have also suffered some this week. Aside from being away from all of those that I love, I was finding that communications between me and those people in my life kind of fell apart the last 2 days. My children were staying with grandma because JD was working a lot and I was not able to get a hold of them to say goodnight the last two nights. It was Valentine's Day and being unable to spend that time where I wanted to be instead of alone and away from home was hard. I have felt very lonely and really missing my people. I was able to have a great conversation with my best friend and that seemed to help as well as running into a lifelong friend at my hotel and being a witness to her boyfriend surprising her with a proposal. It was such a great moment. I am so happy for her.
I feel that I may have upset a couple of friends that are very close to me . All I can say is I'm sorry, I did not intend to upset them and I should have perhaps engaged my brain before writing. It does happen on occasion (more than often in my case as I do not have a filter most days) but know that I love ya and I will be back to normal now that my routine has returned.
I think my children are also feeling it, I came home to major behavioral problems with Adrianna and Hayden isolating with his video game. I took them for ice cream and then they seemed to fall apart too. Hopefully we can all get a good night's sleep and tomorrow is another day. I need to get back to my regular schedule. I am going to spinning class and yoga tomorrow and then I will be back on track. I am going to spend time with my kiddos.
I am going to weigh when I go to the gym tomorrow and will have a better idea of whether I was successful with plan this week or not. Not much to celebrate but I am staying positive. In my training I was reminded of the Ta-Da cape. Wearing a Ta-Da cape every day and celebrating every tiny achievement helps you focus and stay on the path to being joyful in spite of the stress. It's good to be home!
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